Another sweet Monday to all!
I am now a stay-at-home wife and… soon to be mom! I pray to God that my pregnancy
will go on smoothly. I just had this measles-scare last week and I was really
petrified. I kept crying and blaming other people for their carelessness. I
know that my being exposed to measles is beyond their control but what ticks me
off is that they knew all along that there are 2 cases in the hospital already. A warning
should have been given especially that I am carrying a very precious
cargo. But then again, maybe I am just over acting. I noticed that I have been
very protective of myself and my baby nowadays. It’s like there’s this flashy
neon sign that says “back-off” every time I see or feel something that
displeases me or that would hurt my baby. And I am sorry if I hurt other
peoples feeling—one way or the other.
That measles-scare was just last week and right now
I am feeling great. However, I still take precautionary measures. I don’t go
out in the house especially in a crowd and I wear mask if deem necessary.
Through the ordeal, my brother-father who also
serves as my prayer warrior and my doctor-slash-oby helps me to shoo away my nega
emotions. Until now, he still corresponds with me and shares tips on how to
boost my immune system. One of the things he mentioned is for me to watch a
funny movie! Hahaha! But yeah, I guess laughter will create happy jumping cells
or hormones.
Another thing that he underscored is that I should
increase my faith in God. Even though I pray every day, I can see that I have
this small concept of faith. I am such a worry wart and I get paranoid whenever
I sense something is wrong.
After my brother and I exchanged chat messages,
I feel that there is this KIND OF PEACE THAT I AM EXPERIENCING RIGHT NOW. It’s a wonderful feeling and I am proud to
share that I am carrying God’s special gift for me and my husband. I know that it
is God’s baby and I am just a conduit, a happy conduit –-that is. And when the
baby will grow up, I have to set him/her free and let him/her explore this wonderful
world. Also, I don’t get to control things… so I place my 9-month long pregnancy journey to God.
One year and 3 days ago today, my husband and I
lost our first baby love. But right now, I can look back and smile on that
beautiful memory. I finally have the guts to post a preggy photo of myself.
Before, I used to keep mum about my pregnancy. I don’t want to share because I
don’t want people to ask. But after I talk to my brother, I realized that my
baby will be happy if I will share his/her coming in this world. And I believe that
our first baby love will be happy to know that I am alright and that he/she is
having a baby brother/sister soon. That soothes me!
Right now, I am a happy pregnant woman with a
little bunny on the way. My husband and I are very excited. Every time baby
moves or nudges in my tummy, I can’t help but smile and laugh even if I am
alone. It’s the most wonderful feeling I ever felt in my whole entire life.
Months from now, we will welcome our bundle of
joy. Baby will sing, “I’m coming out, I want the world to know, got to let it show..”
We can hardly wait for that day to come and I am beaming with excitement. Thank
you to my family and friends who speak and breathe life to my little one. It makes pregnancy a happy journey! :)
