I am now in our sweet Bukidnon home. I miss
spending my weekends with Bee but I also want to spend time with my family
before I’ll get married. As the date draws near, I can feel a sudden burst of
mixed emotions. It’s just that Bee and I are about to become husband and wife
and these two words seem to have so much weight. It means a new, full
responsibility towards the other better half and I guess it helps that we keep
our communication lines open. Every day, my love for him grows deeper and
deeper.
I have never known a man who is very hands on with wedding preps as my
bee. He mapped out details and prepared a calendar of activities/tasks for me
to follow. He wants me to be stress-free as the big day draws near. And I am
just so happy to oblige whatever task is given to me but of course I also do my
part with the prep and I also get to decide on some other things. I believe
that we perfectly blend with each other. I know that there will be so many
challenges that will come our way as we journey in this life together but I
also know that it will a very exciting one.
As
some parts of the world are celebrating Thanksgiving, I would also thank God
for all the beautiful things that happened in my life. Before, I could never
fathom why some not-so-good-things happen, but now I have the answers to all
those unanswered questions. It is because God wants the best for me. For every
tear I shed, there is something bigger stored in for me in some wondrous,
magical moment I have right now in my heart. I am happy and content beyond
words can say. The feeling is all light, mushy and bright and everything is so
brand new. I thank God for this feeling! I praise and thank him with all my
heart. He perfectly designed my life just the way I would like it to be.
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| happy in love! |
I specifically remember myself staring outside
the window of the condo I stayed in Bangkok for a year and a half. I remember
myself staring at the bright lights of the city; remember how in that window I
wished with all my heart that I will find that peace that my heart seeks for
the longest time.
I thank God for giving me the answers. I thank
God for letting me experience all those kinds of feelings. I thank God for
taking my feet to Bangkok where I have lived a life out from my comfort
zones. It is in there that I learn how
to be responsible, how to decide on things that matter and how to love myself
first before I can fully share this love to a person I will really choose to
love forever.
And when I came home, it felt so new and
exciting. It is like seeing the world for the first time. Yes, for the 1st
time after such misery, I finally found that all my stars are perfectly
aligned.
Thank you God for your great love for me! J
The photo as seen in this blog post says it all.
Happy, care-free, light, mushy, bubbly, giggly kind of feeling when one is IN
LOVE.
