Baby Nate
just fell asleep after his bath and I needed some “me time”. Blogging has always been a happy-stress
buster for me. Whenever I need to zone out from the mundane routine of my
day, I just go directly to my blog and pour out my thoughts or my pent up
emotions.
Anyway, I
thought of writing about redefining my goals before I turn 35 but as of now, I
just want to write about motherhood. This new role cut out for me is indeed a
very challenging one. Days after I gave birth, I feel like I am missing
everything out because I am with my baby 24/7. It is like I am trap forever
changing soiled diapers, burping baby to ease his gassy tummy, pumping milk
like a mad cow just to feed baby with breast milk, sterilizing bottles and a
whole lot more.
I KINDA MISS....
going to
work – truth is, I do miss teaching preschoolers or even college students. I
miss doing paper works, discussing and interacting with other people. I miss
dressing up a bit to look good infront of my students.
Malling— I miss
strolling around the mall without thinking that a cute baby is waiting for me
to come home.
Dating with
hubby—after I gave birth, my husband and I are preoccupied with baby thoughts
and baby stuff—all related to baby that sometimes I feel like the only thing
that is common between us is our darling little boy. I just miss watching
movies with him on weekends, cuddling and hugging anytime of the day, sharing
stories about anything under the sun and a whole lot more
Massages—I miss
going to the spa and having those soothing massages that relaxes my whole body
Retail therapy/shopping—
I miss splurging once in awhile!
Meeting up
with friends—Oh, I can go out anytime I like and catch up with my girlies but
right now, even a quick dinner or lunch is quite impossible
BUT… now
that I have my little boy in my life, I happily embrace the changes that take place slowly. I am happy that I have all the time to be with my baby. I don’t
have to juggle work, studies and being a mother since my husband and I decided
that I have to spend a year with baby before going back to circulation. Some of the changes and things that I
experience right now are as follows..
The zombie
feels! – until now, I am still adjusting to this new role. I am just so blessed
I have my mother who helps me in taking care of my little boy. We would take
turns in putting baby to sleep and she also assists me during baby’s bath time
Poopie/peepee
disaster—I think all moms can relate… and if you are having a boy then I ‘d bet
my teeth that you also experience the pee pee “projectile motion” hahaha!
Crying all
night long—whoa! I learn how to swaddle so that baby can have a good night
sleep (like a bug snug in a rug), dancing slowly like a rockabye baby on my arms,
singing lullabies to lull baby boy to dreamland and oh yes!... a
binkie/pacifier if baby cries inconsolably.
Dealing with
rashes on baby’s body and hard “milk” that stuck on baby’s nose—the first time
I saw those rashes on my baby’s face and body I was totally alarmed that I
urged my husband to have it checked. Doc Pedia said it’s nothing to be worried
about and he told us to apply cetaphil moisturizing cream. I also learned how
to suck that white thingie in baby’s nose using an aspirator and I also spray
baby’s nose with NasoClear Saline solution.
…… and a
whole loottttttt mooooooreee!
Nevertheless,
I LOOK FORWARD for many happy moments..especially those “baby’s first” (first
smile, first tooth to come out, first solid food to eat, first shoe he will
wear, etc..)
I look
forward for more cuddles. I look forward to hear him say “mama” or “papa”.
I look
forward on the day that he would look or stare directly at me and then smiles
or coos
I look
forward on that day I will feed him with solid food and I won’t care if he will
get messy
I look
forward for his first baby step.. oh what a joy to see him walk on his own!
I look forward
on the many nights that I will tell him bedtime stories
I look
forward on the first day we will send him to school (aww..im teary-eyed
already)
I look
forward for Parent-Teacher Conferences and the like..
I look
forward for his first bicycle ride
I look
forward for the many travels we will take as a family
I look
forward for his brighter tomorrow...and the years we will be spending together
Shucks! I am
teary-eyed already… That’s why I will cherish every single moment I have with
him now that he is still a baby. I don’t care if they will say that I am
spoiling him by carrying him whenever he cries. This phase of his life will
come just once so I want to savor every moment of it by carrying him lovingly in
my arms.
I guess I
did not really miss everything out. I may not finish my grad studies on time or
work to earn that handsome salary but I am totally fine with it. I got the most
precious gift ever and I will not trade my babylove for anything else.
