JUNE
It has been a crazy work month for me. I seem to be running against the
nick of time which left me pretty exhausted all day long. Paper works here and there, a pile (a
mountain) of papers to review and check, grades that need to be recorded, books
to be read (I need to be chapters or even a book ahead of my students) and
consultations during my vacant time in school. Add to that… a mother and a wife
at the same time.
I still feel guilty leaving my little boy to my Aunt and some other
people at home. I usually get that feeling whenever I arrive home late and he
is already asleep. I wonder if he played for a long time just to keep himself
awake to see us (his Dada and I) home.
It really makes me real sad leaving him.
It feels like someone jab a knife to my heart. I often wonder whether I am
treading the right path or whether I made the right decision. So, to appease
myself I read mags like Working Mom and Smart Parenting and I read blogs of
mothers who work and how they are able to cope with the so-called separation
anxiety. My only prayer is that Nate will always be at the pink of his health
and that we will never be going back to the hospital again. For the past two
months, we had frequent trips at the hospital for some treatment. Prayerfully,
Nate will just be going to the hospital/clinic for vaccinations and not for
health reasons.
I am now typing this at the office. I just need to have a break from
working so hard this week (Yes,a visit to my blog & other working moms’
blog is a break for me---a break of the daily grind of things) It’s a Saturday and I have been dreaming of
staying at home whole day to be with my son…but I just can’t because I have
tons of things to do and every week, or every day the paperwork and other
work-related stuff keep piling at my desk. Sometimes, it takes me awhile to
think on which to do first because I have to think which task is more urgent.
Arrgggghh!
I hope…really hope that in time I will be able to adjust. I pray that I
am making the right decision. After all, I am doing this for my son. For his
future, right?
I also pray for my husband’s new project which will hopefully
materialize soon. Everything he does is
for our little family and we hope that maybe soooooon, another angel will join
us.
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JULY
And so I am
back! I forgot to post the one above because I am very very busy! Right now, it
is almost 6pm and I am still here working. I need a break so I decided to write
down my thoughts.
Today I got
my salary from June up to 15th of July which is today. I will be dining out with
hubby in awhile to thank God for all the blessings. It feels good to be earning
on my own and to contribute to our bills as well.
To motivate me to work some
more, I plan to splurge a little on my outfit. Hehehe! The rest of my salary
goes to my savings…hurray!
I am not that
fully adjusted with my new daily routine in life but I will be just fine. I
just have to keep on swimming. I will take this as a challenge and besides I am
learning and growing every day— like multitasking, juggling life as a mother, a
wife and a career woman.
So many
things to share but right now I am hungry as a horse..so tata for now!
