I’ve been out from blogosphere from quite a long time. I kind of miss it here; it’s the only place wherein I can write anything I want.
Last Feb., Bee and I celebrated our 1st year of being together and of being in a loving relationship. Two days after that his f.b was hacked and I got the most devastating message in my mail. I called him up and we talked for what seemed like the longest “emo” talk I ever had in my entire life. And I began to question things again and again and again. He confessed something very important to me and I was like drifting in a lonely gray cloud again. He just held me real tight as we cried in each other’s arms. I cannot just fathom the pain then, it was way beyond any human capacity but I had to compose myself for I have 20 or so kids looking up at me the next day. It was probably the saddest, loneliest part of our relationship.
The day before that mail came, we were at the mall because he wanted to buy a gift for me. He wanted to buy me the latest phone but I told him I would settle for something that is not too expensive so I suggested we both have sunglasses. Off we went to the mall and bought the sunglasses and took pictures afterwards. We were so happy that day.
But the day after that was so heartbreaking. TRULY HEARTBREAKING!
The whole saturday of that week was the worst day of our lives. We decided to stop seeing each other and settle the issue first. But by Sunday of the same week, he fetched me up and when I entered on his car, we were both emotional and we just cried and cried as he sang to me our song. Then we went to Carmelites and prayed together.
Although we chose to be together, I still cannot help but broach the subject up and so I went to see my good friend and co-teacher and asked for an advice for me to have a clearer view of what really bothers me and how I can fully accept him. Gradually, I learn to see things clearly and through my daily prayers, I gradually learn to accept him and the situation fully.
Right now, we are still together. He was honest enough to tell me everything. We still continue to build our dreams together. We both know that the worst is yet to come, but we are prepared to face it “twogether”. We both realized that our love grew stronger than ever as we faced the biggest, worst trial in our lives.
Our future together is still bleak and uncertain but with our love that strong, we still believe that we will make it through.
