In my happy place... :)

Hey, I am back! Feels good to be here once again,huh? This is my happy place and am not going anywhere. Four more days to go then its back to work and I’ve been itching to fast forward the days. I can hardly wait for the holidays. I am assuming that heaps of fun will happen this coming Christmas and that I will also be in a stressful mode. Stress, I guess, is good for me. I tend to work efficiently when I am stressed out. Haha! I mean, I am likely to slack when I have more time to accomplish my tasks but when I am racing against the nick of time, I have this sudden adrenaline rush that keeps me going. So, in a way, stress is good for me. Yeah, I know I whine and throw fits when I am stressed out but I guess that is just a part of me.

Supposedly I have to study for the exams but procrastination is just way too sweet for me to refuse right now. Thing is I don’t want to go through it anymore. My desire to reach for that dream is somewhat lost somewhere down the road, down the drainage and unto the vast, expanse of the ocean. Haha! But that doesn’t mean I will not take the exams on Saturday. I have to; it’s a do or die thing. Do I have a choice? Oh yeah, I do and I know I have other options but I have to set a fallback in case things will not turn out right. So there goes. I’ll prolly cram later.
And there’s the wedding. I haven’t started transferring the songs yet but having a list already is such a big feat for now. Haha! It was really tough deciding on what songs to be sung during mass and during reception. I will deal with it later. Here I go again, dilly dallying until the last minute.

Right now, I desperately want to pursue my other passion in life. And every time I think of it, I can feel it slipping on my hands. I need to survive and surviving means working real hard to earn moolah every 15th and 30th day of the month. With a meager amount of salary I am getting, I know that those dreams will simply slip away without my knowing. I’ll just have to hang in there and focus on more realistic things in life.

I am a creature of habit. I do things according to my plan and I don’t like to venture into another area if I am not sure of it. Sometimes though I wish I am this wild adventurer and I wish I can break the rules and set myself free. Just to be a free-spirited empowered young lady ready to conquer the world. Right now, I simply do what pleases me. I want to keep things clear and simple.

I have so many things to share in here but it seems like I really don’t know where to start. Anyway, Apple and I chatted while ago in F.B. and I am so happy to be in touch with her once again. Her whole family is moving to KL since her hubby is already based there. So, Mawin and Dreamy have to attend to another school again; from International School of Bangkok to Mon’t Kiara School. Oh, I would like to visit them. I’ll do that as soon as I am done with school.

apple's family

For now, I guess I just have to be patient. EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL INTO PLACE. I am looking forward for a better tomorrow and hope that year 2010 will bring me all the reason to smile all over again.

Happy scary, Halloween everyone!
Besos, Ivy

ah laveet!

I am quite busy for the wedding prep and i've been searching songs that will make the wedding truly memorable. I came up with Koreantelenovela's soundtrack like Only you (from the Only You korean telenovela aired sometime ago and then Lover's in Paris' Moonriver (both in violin and jazz)and Gregorian's Only You (LAVEET!!)and Edward Chun's Give my Love. :)Purffecct! I will post more entries soon. quite busy these days...

besos,
ivy

I haven’t blogged for the past couple of weeks. I am not really that super busy today as compared to the first two months of my job but I reckon I am just way too lazy to post something in here. But hey, am glad to be back. The past days I’ve been reading anything I could grab on my bookshelf. Last week, I read Reader’s Digest and there was this article that motivated me to push through and follow my dreams wherever it will lead me. It’s an article about Cordia Harrington and how she went up to the ladder of success. For her, integrity is most important to being successful. She also doesn’t give up easily and instead of complaining when problems takes its toll, she takes the negative forces/energies and put it toward getting to the next level. I wish I could have the same outlook in life. It’s just that I am the kind of person who is easily shaken and when I am stressed out to the bone, I easily look for the easy way out which is not good. I have to face all my worries and fears head-on so that I will be able to hurdle another roadblock that will come my way. Right now, I am really working it out and there are many instances when I just want to give it all up but I am thankful that I am still holding on.

My dream of having my own business is still there. It will always be. I am still trying to figure things out if teaching is really my chosen field of career for the rest of my life or would it be just temporary. I just can’t see myself teaching pre-schoolers for the rest of my life. I know I will no longer be effective in teaching young kids if I will be on my late 30’s or early 40’s. Ergo, I need to have a fallback plan. But for now, I am still testing the waters and see if I will survive.

If only dinero is aplenty, I would love to do everything I want in life. I will never have second thoughts in risking everything else. I would love to play classical pieces on the piano and I would love to learn how to string my way in making a beautiful rhythm on a cello. I would love to have a part on Broadways and would really love to travel around the world. Sometimes, I would dream of being in a travel and leisure magazine or prolly clicking my heels up to the fashion world, just like Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and the City.
Oh well, it is never too late; time to dream big. Besides, dreaming is tax-free, ayt?

Have a good day, everyone!

Besos,
ivy