In my happy place... :)

Hey, I am back! Feels good to be here once again,huh? This is my happy place and am not going anywhere. Four more days to go then its back to work and I’ve been itching to fast forward the days. I can hardly wait for the holidays. I am assuming that heaps of fun will happen this coming Christmas and that I will also be in a stressful mode. Stress, I guess, is good for me. I tend to work efficiently when I am stressed out. Haha! I mean, I am likely to slack when I have more time to accomplish my tasks but when I am racing against the nick of time, I have this sudden adrenaline rush that keeps me going. So, in a way, stress is good for me. Yeah, I know I whine and throw fits when I am stressed out but I guess that is just a part of me.

Supposedly I have to study for the exams but procrastination is just way too sweet for me to refuse right now. Thing is I don’t want to go through it anymore. My desire to reach for that dream is somewhat lost somewhere down the road, down the drainage and unto the vast, expanse of the ocean. Haha! But that doesn’t mean I will not take the exams on Saturday. I have to; it’s a do or die thing. Do I have a choice? Oh yeah, I do and I know I have other options but I have to set a fallback in case things will not turn out right. So there goes. I’ll prolly cram later.
And there’s the wedding. I haven’t started transferring the songs yet but having a list already is such a big feat for now. Haha! It was really tough deciding on what songs to be sung during mass and during reception. I will deal with it later. Here I go again, dilly dallying until the last minute.

Right now, I desperately want to pursue my other passion in life. And every time I think of it, I can feel it slipping on my hands. I need to survive and surviving means working real hard to earn moolah every 15th and 30th day of the month. With a meager amount of salary I am getting, I know that those dreams will simply slip away without my knowing. I’ll just have to hang in there and focus on more realistic things in life.

I am a creature of habit. I do things according to my plan and I don’t like to venture into another area if I am not sure of it. Sometimes though I wish I am this wild adventurer and I wish I can break the rules and set myself free. Just to be a free-spirited empowered young lady ready to conquer the world. Right now, I simply do what pleases me. I want to keep things clear and simple.

I have so many things to share in here but it seems like I really don’t know where to start. Anyway, Apple and I chatted while ago in F.B. and I am so happy to be in touch with her once again. Her whole family is moving to KL since her hubby is already based there. So, Mawin and Dreamy have to attend to another school again; from International School of Bangkok to Mon’t Kiara School. Oh, I would like to visit them. I’ll do that as soon as I am done with school.

apple's family

For now, I guess I just have to be patient. EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL INTO PLACE. I am looking forward for a better tomorrow and hope that year 2010 will bring me all the reason to smile all over again.

Happy scary, Halloween everyone!
Besos, Ivy