Sometimes, I often wish that I can be my own boss. I just can’t handle the pressure and stress of being an employee. It is probably because I am not the pleaser type. I just don’t do things or maybe pretend to be like this and like that to please everyone around me. I am who I am—no sugar coating, no twisting and spinning of things. I just remembered that my father once told me that he can never see himself as an employee; he can never see himself fitting in a “culture” of an institution. He wants to be his own boss; boss of his time, boss of his plans and visions. So that is why my father is a businessman. Through the years I have seen him as someone with authority, someone with a voice that everyone seems to listen. I have seen him plan and solve many problems and I like it because he does all those things without consulting to someone with authority because he is his own boss.
Last Sunday afternoon, I had one of the most wonderful moments with my father. We were at the patio talking about the days of our lives. It felt good to be able to discuss with him some serious matters concerning my life right now. And I could really say that I am no longer the “baby” in the family. I’m already a 25-year-old grown up dealing with life’s ups and downs every single day. I have loads of problems and worries that I keep to myself. But last Sunday, I was able to express it to my father and he listened without interfering. I shared to him about my faith in God and told him that I want to see myself in the kind of faith that I can see myself growing. I briefly shared with him about a certain guy I like and he nodded with approval and he also shared something about marriage. He told me that it will just come when it is really meant for me, and if it’s not then maybe God has other plans for me. If a daughter is being good to her parents, then God will send someone who is also good, someone who is imbued with good values. Right now, I am quite living the “single” life and happy about it. I still have heaps of fun and exploration to do in this crazy world. Also, I shared to my father about work and how I have always wanted to be a businesswoman. I told him I cannot see myself forever teaching young kids and that I need to invest into something else. Well, he advised me to finish my masters degree first and just be open to new possibilities as it comes. I was quite relieved after our long talk and now I know that whenever I need some encouragement, I just go straight to my father who knows me best. I love you, papa! Thank you so much for everything.
